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war horse: one who has been through many battles, struggles, or difficult experiences.
one who has presumably triumphed and persevered through hardships.
i would say my father is a war horse but that is a failed symbol
because he has been dragged through the dirt as many times as this metaphor
i want to write in abstract like in a book of
contemporary poetry i bought over the summer;
it was all syllables and lines of punctuation repeated over and over
i want to write something that describes how i feel without saying a word that describes it -
like:
dust and ache and tired and bone and overflowing and lonely and fuck and .
i want to write poems that have meaning without being cliche i want poems
that defy grammar and space and time because when someone reads them, they become me
i want someone to read this and know that right now
it is approximately 12:04am
and my ears are itchy and my eyes -
my eyes -
i feel a deer prancing behind my eyes, his heavy antlers pushing
against my forehead and i should name him ares because i've got an olympic-sized headache
threatening to burn down the villages of my mind
but instead the deer yells WANNA GO?
and he says it like an angry, underfed, pubescent boy with too many dreams
and not enough secrets to make him special
and that's how much my head is throbbing -
there's a deer and a war god and a scared teenager in there
and an unfinished lab report in front of me
and all i can think of in the world is how i can never finish a poem without at least once
mentioning you, because
fuck the war horse symbol and fuck my failed abstract poetry
all i want to know is that you love me
and that if anyone reads this,
i hope they know it sounds best when you read it out loud.
one who has presumably triumphed and persevered through hardships.
i would say my father is a war horse but that is a failed symbol
because he has been dragged through the dirt as many times as this metaphor
i want to write in abstract like in a book of
contemporary poetry i bought over the summer;
it was all syllables and lines of punctuation repeated over and over
i want to write something that describes how i feel without saying a word that describes it -
like:
dust and ache and tired and bone and overflowing and lonely and fuck and .
i want to write poems that have meaning without being cliche i want poems
that defy grammar and space and time because when someone reads them, they become me
i want someone to read this and know that right now
it is approximately 12:04am
and my ears are itchy and my eyes -
my eyes -
i feel a deer prancing behind my eyes, his heavy antlers pushing
against my forehead and i should name him ares because i've got an olympic-sized headache
threatening to burn down the villages of my mind
but instead the deer yells WANNA GO?
and he says it like an angry, underfed, pubescent boy with too many dreams
and not enough secrets to make him special
and that's how much my head is throbbing -
there's a deer and a war god and a scared teenager in there
and an unfinished lab report in front of me
and all i can think of in the world is how i can never finish a poem without at least once
mentioning you, because
fuck the war horse symbol and fuck my failed abstract poetry
all i want to know is that you love me
and that if anyone reads this,
i hope they know it sounds best when you read it out loud.
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What they never teach you about grief
1.
You will not cry demurely in socially acceptable situations.
Instead you shall perform the walking
howl;
and cry hysterically, calm down, and cry, and calm
as you try to gather yourself on the way to the station.
2.
You will be late for work - you will see the dress you wore
last time you saw your lost one -
and you will hold it and breathe into it as if maybe just maybe
you will smell them or feel them or it will change things
and then find you cannot hold it together while wearing it,
change, and miss your train.
3.
You will find this happens over and over and you buy new things
so that they are not 'oh I wore this with
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bad days.
on my bad days,
i open notebooks like bibles and hold pens like lifelines.
i keep opening the book of my memories
just to see if it still leaves a bruise.
tonight,
i am covered in the bruises of your hand
tonight,
your ghost is in my bed. i can't sleep there,
so again-
again i find myself miles from home
wishing on stars i can't see
and spitting memories into the ocean like watermelon seeds.
i sit on my longboard like driftwood and send my shivers into texts
like letters i never should have mailed.
on my bad days,
i wear cuts like ropeburn,
like i just don't know when to let go.
i get lost inside the sadnes
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Hemingway Would Hate This
The trouble with the Boy was that he didn't have the heart of Shakespeare, the voice of Poe, nor the soul of Wordsworth, nor the knowledge of Rembrandt in his darkest days. He didn't have a trace of Michaelangelo's spirit nor the angst of Carvaggio and this on its own was enough to dissuade him from understanding that technique was far better than solidarity and possession far more ageless than youth.
He didn't have any of this knowledge because his father hadn't had the courage to tell him that he needed all the qualities of these great men, to win over the heart of a woman who had the dreams of Austen, the ideas of Da Vinci and the scent o
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Alright, this was a five minute write-from-your-heart-and-current-emotion prompt for I'd say put this in scrap because it's actually awful but I wanted to experiment with a more stream-of-consciousness type thing.
Other than that, I actually posted some real writing earlier, so if you watch me for more than just useless rambling, the one before this is a real post!
Other than that, I actually posted some real writing earlier, so if you watch me for more than just useless rambling, the one before this is a real post!
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Your stream of consciousness self is definitely an amazing writer. This is very real and heartstring-tugging. I felt your frustration and pain. Good job!