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the windows are dirty. the windows are dirty
and this is not a fairytale because
i'm not happy
i'm not a good person
i'm not okay with myself.
not really.
i don't want you to break this
i don't want you to break -
i don't want you
but i do.
the skeletons that were in my closet have come out,
they're dancing on my bed, they're dancing on my grave
they're dancing.
my teeth hurt when their bones shake and they rattle like
the phone in my hands -
it's ringing and ringing and ringing but it's not between my fingers
it's in my stomach and i can't pull it out and
there's screaming.
someone has fallen off the steps into darkness, underground,
inside me is darkness.
my intestines will never see the light until i've died and
is that where you are calling for me
are you leaving your hand prints in the dust on my windowpanes
are you calling for me
because i don't want to be rescued.
and this is not a fairytale because
i'm not happy
i'm not a good person
i'm not okay with myself.
not really.
i don't want you to break this
i don't want you to break -
i don't want you
but i do.
the skeletons that were in my closet have come out,
they're dancing on my bed, they're dancing on my grave
they're dancing.
my teeth hurt when their bones shake and they rattle like
the phone in my hands -
it's ringing and ringing and ringing but it's not between my fingers
it's in my stomach and i can't pull it out and
there's screaming.
someone has fallen off the steps into darkness, underground,
inside me is darkness.
my intestines will never see the light until i've died and
is that where you are calling for me
are you leaving your hand prints in the dust on my windowpanes
are you calling for me
because i don't want to be rescued.
Literature
evenings
sunday.
the old black clock tick
tock
ticks
and you play with my hair
insomnia reigns.
monday.
sleep drifts around us like
mist
the tree casts rainy shadows on the wall, and
someone yawns.
tuesday.
i trace patterns in the ceiling with
my eyes, exploring shadows.
i want to ask you who played batman
in the version i liked, but
i think you're already asleep.
wednesday.
your fingers explore my face as though
you've never felt it before
you trace my collarbone
and kiss my shoulders
and tell me to have the
sweetest dreams.
thursday.
i whimper about
my day, and
you hold me together
singing softly.
the chipped white door
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we are not a fairytale
we are not a fairytale.
I am not the strong lead with a heart of fire,
bones of steel, and eyes of vapid curiosity;
motivation seeping through
my every last intended action because
I was written this way
(the heroine falls only to rise again:
proverbial phoenix, burning out
because it is the cycle of my
life) and you, you are not
the beautiful travesty, perfectly composed
to strike me where I’m weak and
[almost]human, delicately woven
like the tapestry of my dismantling—
a subtle irony where somewhere, a writer
chuckles softly, understanding
we are blinder than church mice, born
in a makeshift world of darkness where
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Literature
under
this delirium is like
a kiss: momentary,
placid,
and perhaps insidious.
dreams stretch their watery
fingers, listless
and profound, over these
reflections
they twine in my hair,
thread between my fingers
(like flowers, or maybe hope),
and drench my skirts
with lost longing.
look, pre-Raphaelites, Elizabethans,
Victorian women of all ages:
this is what comes
of daring to desire.
stars burst before my eyes,
flowers sprout
in my lungs,
the last ray of light has gone
and my world is black
and blue.
I am gorged and oversoaked
with sleep.
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sorry, was feeling terrible.
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its perfect for those gloomy days everyone goes through its flow is great sorry its been a while since ive been online.